![Pinterest](https://pinterest.com/pin/create/button/?url=https://uknews.evprotec.com/mae-muller-eurovision-broke-my-heart-but-album-kept-me-going/&media=https://uknews.evprotec.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/10/131284417_gettyimages-1489886227.jpg&description=Image source, PA Media Image caption, Mae Muller says she didn't want her Eurovision loss to be a "doom and gloom" moment The eyes of the world are on you. You've just placed second to last in Eurovision. What do you do? If you're Mae Muller, you put on a brave face for the outside world and record a TikTok making light of the loss. The 10-second clip, captioned "when someone asks me how well I did at Eurovision" - ends with the 26-year-old miming "ask me another question". But it wasn't the whole story. "When I made that TikTok I was still spiralling", Mae tells BBC Newsbeat. Finishing in 25th place, a year after UK entry Sam Ryder almost won the contest, had left Mae upset and hurt. "I was like, 'Oh my God, my life is over'," she says. "But I knew I had to address it in my own way." Mae says it was part of her coping mechanism, an attempt to own the narrative about that night in Liverpool back in May. "I didn't want it to be a 'doom and gloom moment' because I can't deal with people pitying me," she says. "The second I did that, everyone laughed it off with me and it highlighted it's not the end of the world." Reflecting on the contest she now chooses to focus on the support she received. "I really felt people were on my side," she says. "I had so much fun with the fans and despite the pressure, I was able to be myself." She's also proud of how her entry - I Wrote a Song - went down outside the Eurovision arena. It picked up tonnes of airplay, more than eight million streams on Spotify and landed in the UK top 10. "When that happened I had to force myself to take it in," says Mae. "I was in a bit of a cloud but I'd wanted it for so long, so I had to give myself those flowers." Image source, Getty Images Image caption, Reflecting on Eurovision she says, "the result hurt and I was upset, but I got over it" Mae says she loves writing songs, describing it as a way "to process emotions and feelings". But even though her Eurovision entry was about doing just that, the d){kind=link}
The eyes of the world are on you. You’ve just placed second to last in Eurovision. What do you do?
If you’re Mae Muller, you put on a brave face for the outside world and record a TikTok making light of the loss.
The 10-second clip, captioned “when someone asks me how well I did at Eurovision” – ends with the 26-year-old miming “ask me another question”.
But it wasn’t the whole story.
“When I made that TikTok I was still spiralling”, Mae tells BBC Newsbeat.